start playing more guitar
always be working on an art project
read more
put heart out on the line more
yoga more
sleep more
tumblr limited to an hour a day
lesser and lesser
levels of lethargy and energy and apathy
fluxuating fluently as you further from your family
feeling familiar with feeling fucking dead
you wonder why youre even here, but scratch those thoughts with pencil lead.
note to self,
stop taking your fucking pills
free yourself,
you know they make you feel less real
but you fill the gaps with what you can grab
whatever you can do to stop from picking that scab
i so deeply wish i still believed in angels so you could swoop down and give me a sign
you said that i lit up your life
and now every window i know has closed its blinds
so ive grown cold
and my skin is now thin
everything seems painfully temporary.
moreso than its ever been
lesser and lesser
levels of lethargy and energy and apathy
fluxuating fluently as you further from your family
feeling familiar with feeling fucking dead
you wonder why youre even here, but scratch those thoughts with pencil lead.
note to self,
stop taking your fucking pills
free yourself,
you know they make you feel less real
but you fill the gaps with what you can grab
whatever you can do to stop yourself from picking that scab
i so deeply wish i still believed in angels so you could swoop down and give me a sign
you said that i lit up your life
and now every window i know has closed its blinds
so ive grown cold
and my skin is now thin
everything seems painfully temporary
moreso than its ever been
